Bittersweet Memories

You turn me off at the push of a button
And you pretend that I don't mean nothing
I'm not a Saint that's easy to tell
But guess what honey you ain't no angel
You like to scream, use words as a weapon
Go ahead take your best shot woman
I wanna leave that's easy to see
But guess what honey it's not that easy
We get so complicated
These fingers full of memories
So rip my pictures from your wall
Tear them down and burn them all
Light the fire and walk away
There's nothing left to say so
Take the ashes from the floor
Bury them to just make sure
That nothing more is left of me
Just bittersweet memories

[safety]

it is not something that i am used to feeling.
but i feel it right here with him.
he is my shield, my protector, and my heart
and i am fully his
<3 <3 <3

Nightmares & Dreams

Birthday pictures.

Just keeps getting better...

So another thing I love about this relationship is that we don't try to change each other. I like him for him, every part of him... the awesome, goofy, violent, crazy, dark and evil person that he is. He seriously makes me smile like no other. So, when he decides to do a bunch of gestures when I'm trying to take a picture, what do I get? An actual captured moment instead of just another pose. He is truly one of a kind and all mine.

<3

My Addiction

My source of smiles, laughter, joy, happiness, and comfort. My severe addiction, drug of choice.

Can we keep her?!?!?!

Fera!!! OMG my new friend Fera is so full of awesome and pure win. She fits right in to our group and knows how to crack us up! We only pick on you cuz you're a noob and we love you... but you're our noob. :D

Neko Night!

My Aponibaby worked the other night at this neko party thing... I got all neko for the first time in forever! Not only that, I was in pink! :O
I know right? Weird. Anyways.... picture!

My Aponibaby K3

Through thick and thin this girl right here is always there for me. Granted we have very few thin moments. We are almost always all up in each others business and we like it that way. It's how we function and I don't see how I'd be sane without her. She's my twinbrain and my strength. I love her so effin much it's crazy. From our late night discussions of god knows what to our heart to hearts of emotional shittyness. I'm always there for you just like I know you're always there for me! No matter what! K3


[00:26] Aponi Rae: i'm not gonna lie
[00:26] Aponi Rae: i'm not gonna be a lady
[00:26] Aponi Rae: behind the ship i'll show you my dark secret
[00:27] Aponi Rae: lilly be my lover, ya my lover!
[00:27] You: Arf Arf Arf Arf Arf
[00:27] You: Arf Arf Arf Arf Arf Arf
[00:27] Aponi Rae: xD
[00:27] You: I LOVE YOU
[00:27] You: yayyyy
[00:27] Aponi Rae: rofl xD
[00:27] Aponi Rae: I LOVE YOU TOO XD

[00:28] You: ya know... you are the most stable relationship i've had in here. xD underneath iron and tanner. you really are mine!! :D
[00:28] Aponi Rae: and you're mine :P
[00:28] Aponi Rae: it's probably ya know
[00:28] Aponi Rae: i'm a stablish perso
[00:28] Aponi Rae: person*
[00:29] Aponi Rae: who can't type
[00:29] Aponi Rae: or spell
[00:29] Aponi Rae: xD
[00:29] You: nope
[00:29] You: but i fulfill that part of you! lmao

(just a few chat quotes from our talks. this doesn't even begin to cover it. i'll keep the rest to myself)

I will follow you into the darkness

Fear

Yes. Mabbe. No!

Broken...

but not beyond repair.

tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air...

A bit of RL

A little change of pace. I have really been missing going out in the real world and taking pictures lately. This is one that I took last year and I was just playing around with editing while watching the Real World and My Life as Liz. Anyways, not the point. Here's the picture... it's from one of my favorite spots where i live, across the river is my hometown. The quote is kinda fitting.

When everything is made to be broken....

I just want you to know who I am.

Fire starters!

For Klaatu

I'll be alright without you

It has been an interesting week to say the least. I have had my world... SL and RL turned upside down and left to pick up the pieces myself. Thanks to those who have been there for me.. you know who you are. I was so lost, or so I thought. It's not fun having what you think and believe to be something so stable and a constant in your life ripped away suddenly. Sadly, my suspicions were confirmed and so this week full of deceit, lies, anger and resentment is gone. I am done with it and moving forward and burning bridges... hypothetically of course.

'It well may be that we will never meet again in this lifetime so let me say this before we part...So much of me is made from what I learned from you. You'll be with me like a hand print on my heart, now whatever way our stories end know you have rewritten mine by being my friend'

'Who can say if I've been changed for the better? I do believe I have been changed for the better. But, because I knew you, I have been changed for good.'

Klaatu...

This man has been... a pain in my ass, a friend when I needed one, a sounding board, and someone who just really gets what I'm going through with certain things. He always is willing to offer advice and I believe he truly cares.... most of the time, other times I'm not so sure. Anyways, I finally got him into my picks on my profile after all this time and wanted to share the pics I did of us. That is all. xoxox

So, I went a little pic happy today

It was a "snow day" and I got to spend the whole day with Zack. It was nice. :D

Plus, he actually sat still long enough to take pictures. This is very rare.